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I was going to write an angry post about the blog spam I received this morning but I thought again and figured it would be in ill taste to tear apart and berate a company because they are ignorant to the ways of respectful interactions and advertising. Rather then actually giving them the free negative publicity and wasting my precious time, I will instead send them a message with the correct ways of interactive or grass-roots advertising and see if they give a s*it.
Anyways I'm feeling less then [Me < Everything else] right now as I = epic fail in life, my offerings, and holding any sort of giveaway. I admit perhaps I'm just going about it all wrong with the first not being well foreshadowed and the second with it's ulterior motives(which one can enter by not succumbing to them but I assume people no longer take the time to read.) I measure myself by a lot of things and not just my shop but I just feel constantly beat down because I have no freedom without compromising the little one I so adore in my life. Another reason to these nagging feelings is that I wanted to take a trip to Europe and off of this progressively God forsaken continent, well more like landmass as South America would not be far enough to satiate this need for an international escapade, which I wanted to do this year as the kidlet is still young enough to travel easily with and the event of that happening is steadily slipping away.
Anyways my nap-time break is over so I must get back to tending the miniature dictator, however no matter how bleak things look now I refuse to give up on or lose sight of my true ambitions, and I must add that jewelry design is not the end of my means by any way shape or form this is not my goal in life, although it is something I enjoy enough to do on a daily basis, that is what perhaps limits my success.
Anyways candid moment accomplished, cute pics of Solace shall commence within a day.

Babbelings

My shop will be closed for the afternoon on Feb 12th because I will be vending at the EALA V-tines Gift Fair. So I won't be adding any brand new items (unless I get a custom order) till after that, cuz' my EA peeps get first dibs.

In other personal news my mother wants to be present for the birth of my child, however I've come to the realization that I really don't want her to be there. Her showing up afterwords is fine. However I have a feeling if she is present I would make her miserable and on top of that I don't want to deal with her. Through out my life I have felt a lack of care or support with my aspirations and abilities from her, although lately she has been better with showing support by purchasing items from my shop and buying me maternity clothes which I appreciate greatly and I understand how she is trying to do better. Its just when it comes to major things like this I can't make a full amends for the past, and on top of that finally telling her about our plan for home birth was met with uneducated opposition from her rather then an openness which is something that annoys me greatly, coming from someone who I wish were more supportive. I know she wants to be there and I feel bad for this realization I've come but I really don't want to tell her up front how I feel because it may hurt her feelings. So I'm kind of torn with to tell or not tell birth and then have her come over.

Anyways to end this post on a lighter note here's some random useless knowledge:
Mineral Oil and Pertoleum Jelly are byproducts of processing crude oil (There be black gold in them there beauty products)

Lanolin which is commonly used for soothing cracked nipples from breast feeding comes from a fatty/waxy substance that sheep secret from glands on to their wool. (sorry not vegan friendly)